lyrics to the debut cd, "a Decision left unmade"
1 YOUR TYPICAL LOVE SONG

so here we go, lets start the show. say sumthin bout a girl, and rhyme it with best in the world. say sumthin like shes fine and i wish she was mine. its such a lame cliche, "oh the one that got away." yah were all suckers for a love song, one that melts your heart and makes you sing along...sorry kiddies this just aint that song
oh what to say or do, i'd do anything for you, i need another manufactured line, oh back to "wish you were mine" next i'll say your my best friend and without you my world would end, your an angel from above and knowing you is knowing love.

2 CANT HANDLE
i despise lies, i despise love, i despise trust and thinking of you right now. i dont see how i'll ever go thru tomorrow. i'll never be fine.
dont talk to me like im a child, dont tell me to take it instride, dont tell me just be a man, ive been thru all that i can.
looking back i feel disgust. was it love? well it wasnt lust. what made me stay? what made me go? i never thought you'd pick him tho.
the darkness it fades and the pain brings shades of hidden thoughts and feelings you brought, more baggage than i sought but love lost battles are so hard fought. its so hard to see you there. its so hard to know you care. its so hard to know your his. its so hard to handle this.

3 VICIOUS CYCLE
whoa whoa wait a minute, i screwed up. i admit it. hey you dont get mad, when you yell it makes me sad. so what you saw this coming, you know me? you know nothing. i need you, and thats so sad cuz the hand i hold, holds me back.
whoa no i forgot how this always ends, a fake promise to stay friends. a forced smile, and a hug, in high school we pretend love.
whoa yah heres my heart its polished up for a brand new start. dead nerves but love i felt my cold heart so hard to melt. whoa no i saw your eyes following those other guys. this look upon my face is the look i get when ive been replaced.
open up those pretty eyes that blind the pain and hide the lies. it always starts the same. then it changes and im to blame. so i move along. another girl, another song. but its all the same just a different face and a different name.

4 I'LL BE HERE
so here i am the same place ive always been. im by your side but you cant see. until that night when i held your hand and it felt so right, so right. i was so wrong to think you'd pick me over him. i tried to hide it to myself and hide it within. now all thats left is a single memory of you, and a night i shared with you
but i'll be here. waiting like always. waiting for you to come down, come down. and im still here...
it happened so fast when i held your hand, and yah it felt so right, so right. we spoke no words as we pulled near. not a single word exploding on site. i walked you out and you pulled me near. not a single word. no words. its ok it didnt work out. it really never does, but it felt right for one night.
i tried and i failed. she smiled then she bailed. thats how it always goes, always goes. your pure and you true, and im wasted and im used, thats how the stories told. but i'll be here by your side, right where you cant see, see me.

5) AS A RAINBOW
i didnt lie, i didnt know. i didnt try i didnt go. i heard you say to my friend, "this just may be the end, of our days of our love, he flew away soon enough" as a rainbow slowly fades, so our love it fades away
but you know i hate to see that all these tears they come from me, and yah i hate to know that i can bring you down so low. so many times i doubt myself. the wrong decisions, i need help. the world out there is so cold, youve moved along, well, so ive been told
i wont forget that fateful night. your too upset so we fight. just like before so many times you slammed the door and closed the blinds. you hid away from the world, things you say, hate was hurled at my face and at my soul, but what can replace just what i stole?
as a rainbow slowly fades, so our love fades away.

6) PARASITE
your just the kind of person i cant stand. you start your game by taking a hand. you then slowly start to suck out the life. why dont we skip to the end?-heres a knife.
i should look away from you, after all the damage you do. your a parasite, your not worth my time. at least i got away. oh better him than me.
you play the game of deception, oh so well. before he fully realizes he'll be in hell. its like when you put a frog on the stove, you slowly add heat and that frog is fried.
the other day i met a girl who says she sees the world as a land of opportunities too priceless to speak of. she says that maybe fate is a friend, and leads us to a better time and a place.
yah im pretty sure shes crazy.

7)WE ARE THE MOVIE
we are tragic. we are the movie that makes everyone cry. we are crashing. we are the ending that makes everyone cry. if they could only watch and see in our heads, we'd make everyone cry. when they saw our love and how we cant be, we'd make everyone cry.
and i cry
the sun in our sky has finally set, yet nobody cries. those tear covered notes, now stained with regret. and nobody cries. your lips first kiss by mine, and not his. and nobody cries. my lips remain true flawed only by you. and nobody cries.
no one knows, no one cares, was love lost or was love spared? February 15th was the last time, and i cry.

8) THE LAST SONG I'LL EVER WRITE (IN REMEMBRANCE OF YOU)
remember the days when you were mine? the memories i have i dwell on all the time. remember when i was scared you'd hold me by your side. gently say you love me, and wipe a tear from my eye. i miss the days before my world tumbled down. instead of "i love you" its "i'll see you around" no one in this world knows how sad i've become. you werent just a girl you were an angel from above.
sometimes (WHOA-OH!) i hate myself for the pain i brought upon myself and the one that i lost. so if your listening now and hear this song know that thru it all i love you all along.
3 months had gone by, without a note or call. i'd given up on us. i'd given up on all. what made you call and bring back the past. as i choked back tears, my heart beat so fast. Has too much gone on between then and now? to forget all the pain? i just dont see how. lifes gotten so cold, my soul-mate is gone. tears fill my eyes from the words of a song.

9) FOR YOU
two seasons have passed, memories amassed in my mind. and i thought of you, like i always do. and that look in your eyes. those nights when the bitter cold brought you to my arms to hold, and protect you from the outside. something in your eyes made me realize you were so unreal. so much more but now your gone.
you were unsure of my mistakes, past wrongs. your gone-cause me heartache. you were so true, i want only you, and you know i'll go anywhere for you
i cant pass your old road without remembering the hand i used to hold. seeing you today, so good just to hear the voice i have missed for so long. i miss those late nights when we shared our dreams, and i know you miss them just as much as me. when you dream of me, do you tell yourself it doesnt mean a thing or do you know were meant to be?
does march 18th mean much to you? spring flings still burn in my heart, but youve grown so cold so far from my side.

10) I MIGHT BE STUPID
today i decided, to take rope and tie it, to the back of nicks car. then i decided, to stand on a skateboard, while nick pushed the gas towards the floor. the skateboard started swervin, around the first curve and, i thought to myself, i can (A) jump to the grass, or (B) try and run way too fast and fall on my head and end up half dead.
i should of chose (A)
now my shoulder looks obscene, i think its growing gangrene. and i cant move my leg. at least we got it all on tape.
i thought it'd be cool to go and see "old school" with a girl i know but its snowing really bad. my wipers dont work, and i drive like a jerk, but i really wanna see this movie. after this date i saw her road way too late, and i thought to myself. i can (A) turn and come back or (B) stop way too fast, and slide into a pull and nearly kill us both.
i should of chose (A)
now my car looks obscene. i cant turn without scraping. been this way, since i was a kid. i think i might be stupid.
yah my brain works obscene. i cant think without hurting. ive been this way since i was a kid. i think i might be stupid.

11) YOU AND ME
i never thought i'd see the day, when all my dreams just fade away. a time when all i know is destroyed, a time when life just seems so void. never thought i'd say goodbye, never thought i'd make you cry. i never thought it'd come to this, i saw the mark but i just missed.
3 weeks had gone by since you'd been there with that guy. How could you keep that from me? you took so much more than i ever could afford. How could you take that from me? 2-3-4
you never thought it'd hurt so bad you never knew just what you had a time you lived in selfishness, abandoned all your faithfullness. you never meant to meet that guy, you never meant to make me cry. you never meant to take from me but 10-7(october 7th) is a sad reality.
3 weeks...
now i finally see that laughter coincides with humiliation. and the beautiful irony is that history repeats itself. how many dark nights i spent contemplating the disastrous consequences of my decisions when in fact it was simply history repeating itself. just as i was disgraced 3 weeks before our embrace, 3 weeks after our end, you destroyed me again. And all i want to know is Why...why.
you took so much more than i ever could afford i dont know what to do so i'll find someone new. i took so much more than you ever could afford, you dont know what to do so you'll find someone new.
November 1st was hard for me/you and you/I didnt call. November 1st was hard for me/you i guess you/I didnt care. and i dont hate you, and i wont hate you. should i hate hate you? i cant hate you. Do you hate me? would you hate me? should you hate me? you should.
just last night, you asked me, "why will these feelings never leave? why is this bond so strong? why do these feelings still belong? this bond i felt it grow with time, your very souls entwined with mine. this bond i felt it from the start. your souls attached to my heart. And you'll never leave my thoughts.

12) DONT CALL
a broken hearts a state of mind. if i can keep my mind off you, i'll be fine.
when i woke i felt no need to call at all now i see that i dont lie when i say we should be apart to stay.
never call me again...cuz it hurts too much to just be friends.
can i sing this song, you can sing along, if you feel this way, you should stay away
today i thought i would have a hard time, but time flew by, and you werent on my mind. now i see im fine without you. yah im see im fine without you.

13) PINK CONS IN JUNE
sleeping silently. thoughts of better days. open eyes, in comes reality. now i know that sun stained skies, open cries of faded you and i's
i should of told you, i couldnt tell you. i was afraid that i would lose you. How could i expect that you would regret all the time we spent and the day we met?
melting snow brings hope from within. my heart warms when i see your eyes. now i know that i shouldnt try, the sky bleeds and so do i
a year has passed wounds spread open. wounds open and still unhealed. now i know that you unknowingly hold the salt inside your hands. (so pour it over me)